I don't know about you but this Christmas has went by like a blur and I can't believe it is over but God reminded me of so many things especially His character of love! This was my first Christmas away from home and to be honest this week was hard for me but also good! God ended up using my NY family who has now adopted me to encourage me and love on me! And it was just such a blessing this week because my heart honestly felt a blur of emotions.
I found myself missing some of my close friends and missing my home Church's Christmas Eve service but at the same time I found new memories! I also found this week to be a hard balance knowing I love to be around people but I also need to balance time to think. This one was hard for me because I while I needed to think I also didn't want to be alone. I would say God put me in a challenging spot and a place to ask myself, " Can Christ be my all when I feel alone?"
Grant it, I know I am never alone but I think sometimes I forget that Christ is really there and the lie of being alone is nothing but a pile of lies. I also found it hard trying to figure out how do I connect with those around me and how do I be me without worrying what others think. I am telling you my heart got a work out this week.
And yet while my heart was rolling and rolling around God kept putting His arms around me to remind me that I am not alone. He gave me a family to stay with and I loved every bit of the craziness. Yes, my heart could of paused more but I don't regret what I did experience. And yes, it seem like my heart was just on non stop tread mill but I had friends that God put in my path to remind me that He was there!
Yes, I know people can't satisfy my heart but I think at the same time while I need to remember God is always there that He also understood my heart for community !
In fact community is one of the many reasons I love Cornerstone! I 've been here at least 2 months I believe and yes I am still working on relationships but at the same time I think as I write to you all it reminds me to look up and see how God loved me this week because regardless of my hearts condition. My God didn't fail me... In fact this is what He gave me this week:
- Hugs from my NYC family
- Learned how to play a new game with the Tubb's
- 2 Lovely children who brought laughter
- A Free Play
- Ginger Bread houses
And while I know these are a few I want to take time to mention them because regardless of how much our hearts feel, God is faithful to keep loving us even in our weaknesses. So, in other words I would say that this Christmas was reminder that God loves me and He takes me in for me regardless of my heart conditions or what I face. He also patient with us to keep reminding us He's there no matter what it takes! And, so I say all this that maybe the truth I need to remember and maybe you as well is God can handle any thing ! Also, God's love never fails ! May God bless !
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